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cross my heart fearless; taylor swift let's say you were drafted to a team that wasn’t your first pick. you know, you don't like the players. you hate the way they play the game. you even think the quarterback is full of crap. the quarterback's a pain in the ass you don't owe a damned thing to. but, it's your team. you don't quit. you don't talk to the press. you don't bitch to the coach. you just, you just go out there every sunday and you make the blocks and you take the hits and you, you play to win. you show up and you suit up and you play, because it's your freaking team. hello;the soul rebekah eighteenthjuly P.H.P.P.S. grad rafflesgirls'school[sec] rgsnpccsea; area15 ATC'09 GRP6 student librarian|exco'09, '10 hardrock hadley one-oh-seven 'oheight two-oh-seven 'ohnine & perfectionist always. nice lil' girl who does her best in everything she does.
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root of knowledge my last ten books: = gypsy ; leslie pearse = king of torts ; john grisham = 79 park avenue ; harold robbins = whose child ; susan gable = the MD she had to marry ; christine rimmer = vanishing acts ; jodi picoult = the further observations of lady whistledown ; julia quinn, suzanne enoch, karen hawkins = the stolen princess ; anne gracie = DUH! ; bob fenster = falling for romeo ; jennifer laurens endless whispers don't you freaking dare. endless connections faithmethodistchurch peihwapresbyterianprisch rafflesgirls'school(sec) others unforgotten past thanks beyond words you can remove this if you don't have a conscience. i assure you i will not hunt you down. skin by: Jane |
but you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair... absentmindedly making me want you Saturday, November 28, 2009 |&she laughed @ 3:11 PM♥
unfinished symphony 3- let music take flight yo. from today, my so-called songish posts will be labelled as unfinished symphony, added to the food for thoughts and my life quotation marks""s. thanks, and enjoy:D F.T. Island #1 Prayer F.T. Island Colourful Sensibility (2008) F.T. Island #2 You Are Love F.T. Island Colourful Sensibility (2008) F.T. Island #3 Because I Didn't Know How To Love F.T. Island Cheerful Sensibility (2007) Westlife #1 If I Let You Go Westlife Westlife (1999) day after day time pass away and I just can't get you off my mind nobody knows I hide it inside I keep on searching but i can't find the courage to show to letting you know I've never felt so much love before and once again I'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me will I ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah how will I know if I let you go night after night I hear myself say why can't this feeling just fade away there's no one like you you speak to my heart it's such a shame we're worlds apart I'm too shy to ask I'm too proud to lose but sooner or later I've gotta choose and once again I'm thinkin' about taking the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me will I ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah how will I know if I let you go if I let you go, oh baby oooh once again I'm thinkin' about takin' the easy way out but if I let you go I will never know what my life would be holding you close to me (close to me) will I ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah how will I know if I let you go but if I let you go I will never know (oh baby) will I ever see you smiling back at me oh yeah How will I know (how will i know) if I let you go Westlife #2 I Lay My Love On You Westlife Coast to Coast (2000) Just a smile and the rain is gone Can hardly believe it (yeah) There's an angel standing next to me Reaching for my heart Just a smile and there's no way back Can hardly believe it (yeah) But there's an angel calling me Reaching for my heart I know, that I'll be ok now This time it's real (Chorus) I lay my love on you It's all I wanna do Every time I breathe I feel brand new You open up my heart Show me all your love, and walk right through As I lay my love on you I was lost in a lonely place Could hardly believe it (yeah) Holding on to yesterday Far, far too long Now I believe it's ok cause This time it's real Repeat Chorus I lay my love on you It's all I wanna do Every time I breathe I feel brand new You open up my heart Show me all your love, and walk right through As I lay my love on you I never knew that love could feel so good Like a once in a lifetime You change my world I lay my love on you You make me feel brand new Show me your love and walk right through (oh, yeah) As I lay my love on you Chorus I lay my love on you You make me feel brand new Show me all your love and walk right through As I lay my love on you As I lay my love on you Westlife #3 When You Tell Me That You Love Me Westlife Face to Face (2005) I wanna call the stars Down from the sky I wanna live a day That never dies I wanna change the world Only for you All the impossible I wanna do I wanna hold you close Under the rain I wanna kiss your smile And feel the pain I know what's beautiful Looking at you In a world of lies You are the truth And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me I'm shining like a candle in the dark When you tell me that you love me I wanna make you see Just what I was Show you the loneliness And what it does You walked into my life To stop my tears Everything's easy now I have you here And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me I'm shining like a candle in the dark When you tell me that you love me In a world without you I would always hunger All I need is your love to make me stronger And baby Everytime you touch me I become a hero I'll make you safe No matter where you are And bring you Everything you ask for Nothing is above me I'm shining like a candle in the dark When you tell me that you love me You love me When you tell me that you love me Backstreet Boys #1 Crawling Back To You Backstreet Boys Never Gone (2005) Everybody knows That I was such a fool To ever let go of you But baby, I was wrong And yeah, I know I said We'd be better off alone It was time that we moved on I know I broke your heart I didn't mean to break your heart But baby, here I am Chorus: Banging on your front door My pride's spilled on the floor My hands and knees are bruised And I'm crawling back to you Begging for a second chance Are you gonna let me in? I was running from the truth And now I'm crawling back to you I know you're in there You can make me wait But I'm not going to wait It's the least that I can do Just to tell you face to face I was lying to myself (lying to myself) Now I'm dying in this hell (dying in this hell) Girl, I know you're mad I can't blame you for being mad But baby, here I am Chorus: Banging on your front door My pride's spilled on the floor My hands and knees are bruised And now I'm crawling back to you Begging for a second chance Are you gonna let me in? (let me in) I was running from the truth And now I'm crawling back to you Bridge: If you could see these tears I'm crying Touch these hands that can't stop shaking Hear my heart that's barely beating You would see a different man But baby, here I am Chorus: Banging on your front door My pride's spilled on the floor My hands and knees are bruised And I'm crawling back to you Begging for a second chance Are you gonna let me in? (let me in) I was running from the truth And now I'm crawling back to you Banging on your front door My pride's spilled on the floor I was running from the truth And now I'm crawling back to you (yeah) Now I'm crawling back to you (crawling back to you) Crawling back to you (crawling back to you) Backstreet Boys #2 Inconsolable Backstreet Boys Unbreakable (2007) I close the door Like so many times, so many times before Filmed like a scene on the cutting room floor I'm gonna let you walk away tonight Without a word I try to sleep, yeah But the clock is stuck on thoughts of you and me A thousand more regrets unraveling, ohh If you were here right now, I swear, I´d tell you this CHORUS: Baby I don't want to waste another day Keeping it inside it's killing me Cause all i ever want, it comes right down to you I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable I climb the walls I can see the edge but I can't take the fall, no. I never write the number So I cannot make the call Maybe 'cause I know you''ll always be with me In the possibilities CHORUS: Baby I don't want to waste another day Keeping it inside it's killing me Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable I don't want to be like this, I just want to let you know, Everything that I'm holding, Is everything I can't let go, can't let go. CHORUS: Baby I don't want to waste another day Keeping it inside it's killing me Cause all I ever want, it comes right down to you I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable Don't you know it baby I don't want to waste another day I'm wishing I could find the words to say Baby I would tell you every time you leave I'm inconsolable Backstreet Boys #3 I'll Never Break Your Heart Backstreet Boys Backstreet Boys (1996) Baby, I know you're hurting Right now you feel like you could never Love again Now all I ask is for a chance To prove that I love you From the first day That I saw your smiling face Honey, I knew that we would Be together forever Ooh when I asked you out You said no but I found out Darling that you'd been hurt You felt like you'd never love again I deserve a try honey just once Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong You walked in, you were so quick to judge But honey he's nothing like me [ Chorus: ] I'll never break your heart I'll never make you cry I'd rather die than live without you I'll give you all of me Honey, that's no lie I'll never break your heart I'll never make you cry I'd rather die than live without you I'll give you all of me [ 2x ] As time goes by You will get to know me A little more better Girl that's the way love goes baby, baby And I (I) know you're afraid (know you're afraid) To let your feelings show (feelings show) And I understand Girl, it's time to let go (girl, it's time to let go because) I deserve a try (try) honey Just once (once) Give me a chance (chance) and I'll prove this all wrong (wrong you walked) You walked in, you were so quick to judge (quick to judge) But honey he's nothing like me Darling why can't you see [ Chorus (2x) ] [ Bridge: ] No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry) I swear (Oh I, oh I, I swear) No way, no how (I'll never break your heart girl, I'll never make you cry) c'est la vie. vivre avec. Friday, November 27, 2009 |&she laughed @ 8:45 PM♥
food for thought 138- when you're happy and you know it clap your hands yo. I'm happy today:DDDD for no reason, at least not that I know of, but wtv:DDD hehe. maybe the fact that everything between koh and I is gonna be alright contributed a significant part of it(: not perfect, nothing is instant, of course, but we're working to be better, new new year resolutions, haha, cross my heart. I want to watch a movie on yt. I want to watch new moon with jiao. I want to watch you're beautiful ep 16. I want to watch a dvd. and the scary part is... this hols seem to go by horribly fast, 'cos we ended school two weeks later than usual, so like, we 'lost' two weeks of holsD: anyways, I think I am slowly moving from team edward to team jacob, even before watching new moon, and I think it's jiao's fault. plus, robpat is not as hot as taylor lautner. but if I were to be a vamp or a wolf, I'd choose the vamp. the wolf is kind of freaky, but cool on jb:DD so... the psle mania yesterday, GOSH. whole families crowd up my bro's school just to collect one person's results like wth man, very strong moral backing, huh? but, really, it doesn't change anything. my bro did "okay lah", enough to get in to wherever he wants to go comfortably. (don't look at me. ask him.) anyways, kind of deja vu, except that I am the one who gets to talk a lot and not worry or be anxious before the results' collection, hohoho;P yes, I know what's it's like 'cos I've been there, done that:D and I really can't believe we're gonna be in year 3 already. it's like:O so freaking fast. TRIPSCIHIST:D but I am kind of scared, 'cos like, they say the transition is kinda tough, so like, in sec3 we're likely to die, before we start living. I am scared of pts I guess, I mean, I'd rather have ppas than pts. pts totally suck, like, caps S. when I cry, more often it's over pts than ppas. and I am kinda glad that I won't touch lit and geog again, though it's really so hard to believe. I'm being random so, I love batman. I think 'batman begins' shows the 'story-behind-it', and 'the dark knight' is one of the best thrillers I've ever watched. it's exciting and deep, on so many layers. the themes portrayed in the both films (i.e. justice, fear, vengeance etc.) get me thinking about a lot of stuff. it's really, really good. I love it. I think I even prefer batman to spiderman, 'cos it's more exciting. OHYES. we were playing monopoly yesterday, and it was so freaking cool. I got into jail 6 times, paid to get out once, and rolled doubles five times to get out! and not only that, when my sis was 'in jail' she asked me to help her roll doubles, and I did roll doubles, AGAIN. I KNOW!! it's so freaking cool right, and a bit spooky, but MOSTLY COOL. I never did that before, and never will again, but it was superb while it lasted:DD VERY:DD anyways, I can't think of anymore random tidbits to tell. so, byebye:D have a nice weekend:D c'est la vie. vivre avec. p.s. thanks a lot, yo(: but please, pretty please with cherries on top, don't call me that again. hahahha:D it sounds, and feels duperweird. thanks(: Tuesday, November 24, 2009 |&she laughed @ 9:46 PM♥
my life's quotation marks"" 180- from me, even if you never see this Reality is cruel, but reality is life. The past ten days was all fantasy, they mean nothing, because you can't touch it, feel it, or live it. You can run after it, but you will never catch it. To some, it's a ray of light. You cannot catch it. To me, it is intangible, implausible and impossible. It is pointless. Yes, call me jaded, because that's what I am. No fantasy lasts. No fantasy carries you through because it is like a mist. You can't rely on it. It is unreliable. Fantasy is for the good times. It is first to go when the storm comes because when you get hit, the pain, the hurt, you realise that fantasy is no balm, no anaesthetic, because it is reality you're up against. Reality is solid. Reality is life. Reality is undoubtedly cruel, but it is what is there, for real. You can pretend not to see it if you close your eyes, but you can't keep your eyes closed forever, and when you open your eyes, it is still staring at you, squarely in your face. It doesn't disappear. You can't shut it out. You can live with it, face it, challenge it to a duel, but you can't pretend it doesn't exist. You experience it's existence beyond denial, and it's real, that's why you feel it when it hits you. You'd laugh if you knew, if you knew that I still think of you. Whatever that invisible force is that keeps be from letting go, the effects are obvious. The guilt is immense. The loss is painful. If I ever thought that never seeing you again would cure it, I was wrong, because it doesn't make it better. It makes it worse. It is beyond repair, but if I could I'd do it over. I'd do it over, and seize every moment. See, I never learnt to appreciate you, until I felt the hurt of loss. I never learnt the hurt I dealt, until I felt it. I remember all those moments that you gave so freely, and I didn't care to acknowledge them. Unintentionally, cross my heart, but it doesn't matter, does it? Now, I admit, it hurts, everytime I think, everytime I try not to think, everytime I can't help thinking. It's too late, I know, and my heart breaks. It's too late to undo it. It's too late to take it back. It's too late to explain, and there were so many times I almost told you, but I never did. I never did because I didn't dare to, because I am a coward, because I'd rather hurt in silence than risk more hurt. To put it crudely, whoever your 'next' girl is, she's braver than me already. You would have forgotten, everything, possibly, but I can't forget, not a single detail. Being forgotten hurts, but maybe I don't want you to remember. I don't want you to remember that person in my skin, but it seems you'd never know the person I am. That hurts too, but I can't change that. I can't go back. I can't take you back, and neither can you, or so it seems. Yet, for a little while, though it hurts, I will pretend that you're here. I will hug you and wait till you get here, even if you don't in the end. Sometimes I wonder what it's like on your side, and that makes me sad. If I know, I may be hurt, so I don't want to know. Simple logic, ain't it? TOTALLY JUVENILE. Soon enough, I'd read this, and laugh till my sides ache. Yet, for now, even if you'll never get read this... I cared, and I didn't show it, but I did. I cared, and I didn't play along, but I loved what you did. I cared, and I didn't laugh when you were being funny on purpose, but I am glad for you. I cared, but I didn't show it, but I wish I could. I miss you, even if you didn't know that,but I can't tell you, because you're gone. It really is too late after all. It appears that you're the only glitch left. If I said I was sorry, would it make everything alright? If I said I was sorry, would you have understood? If I said I was sorry, would you give conditions to accept it? I can anticipate one. Like I have mentioned before, pride makes it hard for me to apologise, but when I do, I give you my heart in my words. Do what you will with it, and that'll determine the face you see. This is not a threat, but merely for information. What I can give, I will. If I do apologise, and it takes me to love her for you to accept it, I will do it. I will wrench my pride and put it in my pocket, and do it as you like it, not because I don't dislike her enough, but because I love you enough. It has been agonizing, it hurts the most because I loved you the most. So I'll do it, if I can, if I have what it takes, because I cannot bear losing you, because this hurt is so real it engulfs me, and the most important part of it, is that it is not worth it. it is not worth losing you, just to feed my dislike. I never used the word hate on her because it is wholly inappropriate, but if everyone were to pardon my language just for a second. I love you more than I hate her. I loved you the most. It is not worth losing everything we had over her because it is senseless, because if I did, there'll be more hate in me than love. No amount of dislike exceeds the love in hurt. I am sorry, if what I did hurt you, but I can't pretend to love someone I don't, and I can't pretend to hate someone I love. If what I ever regret what I did, you'd be the only one I regret losing. Don't take this apology. Take one that I will give, when I address you, but take this as a stepping stone. When I do address you, when I am brave enough, you can choose. You can always choose, and there needs to be no guilt on your part, nor mine. I hope you will accept it when the time comes, but if you don't, it was a good ride while it lasted, one of the best I've ever had, but I have given all I can to revive it, to salvage it, and I leave with a clear conscience. I leave with a hole in my heart, but not the gaping hole now. It may be surprising, but apologies do that, even if they are not accepted, because that's all I can give. That hole will be patched because I will make new memories and better ones. It will hurt, but it will not engulf me, it will not be the end of the world. Having said that, I must hasten to add that you were one of the best things that happened to me, even if you never knew that. Losing you will hurt, like hell, but I can put out all the flames in hell with my tears, so that the wet cinders and remnants will never reignite, and I will never cry over you again. I was going to write another one, but I'm afraid it would have been pretty unpleasant, and well, there's a pleasant one too, but this is far to down to have a high one. Whatever it is, Jiao, I love you, and I mean it. Remember that if you're truly pretty, you can wear the ugliest watch in the world, and look good, because you make it pretty. All the same, you're getting the purple one, even though it's pretty, so that it can make you prett...ier. |&she laughed @ 7:56 PM♥
my life's quotation marks"" 179- that makes all the difference Ducard: Your compassion is a weakness your enemies will not share. Bruce Wayne: That's why it's so important. It separates us from them. Tuesday, November 10, 2009 |&she laughed @ 5:22 PM♥
food for thought 137- sunshine yo. it sort of surprised me, you know, remember when I said the five years later thing, you'd look back and laugh? frankly, it didn't even take that long. I'm laughing already. I mean, not in a sarcastic manner, just... how should I put it? I look at it, and I can see it so clearly. I'm puzzled as to why I couldn't before. it's simple. 当局者迷，旁观者清 is the easiest way to explain it, because when I was caught up in the heat of everything, I lost sight, I was blind to the full picture. it was only when I slowly "zoomed out" could I see the full, complete picture. it feels stupid, childish and juvenile. I feel stupid, childish and juvenile. and it all just feels excessively unnecessary. anyways, I went to jurong regional library today, and it's COLD there. really. and HERE, I didn't know what to write, so I went to youtube and watched the preview of the next episode of you're beautiful. AND I CAN'T WAIT. SERIOUSLY. IT IS LIKE 'ZOMG'. I love shinwoo (jungyonghwa) the most, and everytime his heart breaks, it's just inexplicably heartwrenching. here, I quote chin. "you're beautiful is a freaking addictive showw!:D whee cat., beckah yeo and lee, mok and co. watches too wheeee:D JANGGEUNSUKKKKK!:D" GOSH;D btw, I like chin with her green braces, hahhahaha, CHIN IF YOU ARE READING THIS, yes, have an ego moment, you look pretty in your braces, and girly too. hahaha, and cuiqin has to treat you cos she got into history ra! which is quite GOSH;D too, not because she is not smart enough or whatever, but it's RA! and RA is so cheeeem, man. yes, felly, you're cheem. don't deny it. and even smarter, joan got into TWO RAs, which is beyond GOSH;D. so, anyways, congrats to all the successful RA applicants(: HUGS(: to be really honest, I am not built for raD:, cos I am so muggertype not smarttype. like I can mug, but I am not especially good, for application esp, that kind, that's why I suck at human geog. I can't do ra, seriously, I'd just flop over and die. I couldn't handle the RA level, no way. so, it's like I especially admire that kind of people, AHEM, the RA TYPE. I am especially impressed, 'cos it's just AH-mazing, man. SO KUDOS TO THEM:D so... I really love BLG and secondhand serenade. my head is almost exploding 'cos I listen too much on my ear-piece, yes, I know I kinda need to stop. but it's just the way the words and the melody capture me. not for all the songs, 'cos sometimes, I find BLG too loud and tune-less, for some songs only, and for S.S., it can be kind of draggy and boring. but still, for the most part, they are pretty good, both lyrics and melody. oooh, and after monday, I like 'never had a dream'! it's so nice and touching, and and and, 'everytime we touch' is great too. OHOHOH, it's all so wonderfully fantabulous, yes, you're beautiful ost too, so I am like, spending my life on youtube submerged in music. I'm wholly enchanted. not that I mind. GOSH;D c'est la vie. vivre avec. Saturday, November 7, 2009 |&she laughed @ 1:00 PM♥
food for thought 136/unfinished symphony 1- all that's left unsaid yo! this is another songish post! okay if you're wondering about the '!', for some reason I am quite '!' now, even though I was pissed with my sis only moments ago. but it's okay now!~ kay this, '!~', is epic, it is JIAO. HAHHAHAHA. nonono, I am not bipolar, NOT RIS LOW. I am just happier, and feel a lot lighter, for some reason or another. anyways, more bombardment of songs today, really, I JUST LOVE BLG & SECONDHAND SERENADE SONGS. the lyrics are so D: but it's almost like you can relate to them. enjoy(: BLG #1 The Only Way That I Know How To Feel Boys Like Girls Boys Like Girls (2006) Before you let me fall Kill me so I don't feel it at all Push my body up against the wall And pick your poison Cause everything feels wrong And I don't know where I belong Take me for granted Make me feel used Leave me in pieces Misery is company Cause I know that it's real I've learned to love the pain Cause that's the only way that I know how to feel Maybe it's a phase Maybe I'll break out of it someday Maybe this is just my twisted fate I always feel like everything is wrong And I don't know where I belong Take me for granted Make me feel used Leave me in pieces Misery is company Cause I know that it's real I've learned to love the pain Cause that's the only way that I know how... To feel your arms around my neck I'm suffocating with regret From all the wasted hours spent Believing I was never meant To touch the face of something real These sewn up scars will never heal But I put down a deal Cause that's only way that I know how to feel Take me for granted Make me feel used Leave in pieces Broken and bruised Take me for granted, make me... I promise that you'll Never keep on fallin' to pieces Misery is company Cause I know that it's real I've learned to love the pain Cause that the only way that I know how to feel I know how to feel You're the only way that I know how to feel BLG #2 Broken Man Boys Like Girls Boys Like Girls (2006) I want to scream, until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep So I don't have to make a bad impression I need to start to be myself Cause I'm sick of everybody else I won't let you bring me down It's here and now I'm breaking out I will learn to love again But I will stand a broken man I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me I wanna take back all the shit that I have done But I guess you were better off without me I need to start to be myself Cause I'm sick of everybody else I won't let you bring me down It's here and now, I'm breaking out I will learn to love again But I will stand a broken man I took one big step and I looked away And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say I'm always too late You never got your story straight I'm always up late I think I'm everything you hate I took one big step and I looked away And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say I'm always too late You never got your story straight I'm always up late I think I'm everything you hate I took one big step and I looked away And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say I'm always too late You never got your story straight I'm always up late I think I'm everything you hate I won't let you bring me down It's here and now, I'm breaking out I will learn to love again But I will stand a broken man (I took one big step and I looked away, and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say) I won't let you bring me down (I'm always too late, you never got your story straight, I'm always up late, I think I'm everything you hate) It's here and now I'm breaking out (I took one big step and I looked away, and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say) I will learn to love again (I'm always too late, you never got your story straight) But I will stand a broken man BLG #3 Go Boys Like Girls Love Drunk (2009) Little change of the heart Little light in the dark Little hope that you just might find Your way up out of here 'Cause you've been hiding for days Wasted and wasting away But I got a little hope today You'll face your fears Yeah, I know it's not easy I know that it's hard Follow the lights to the city Get up and go Take a chance and be strong Or you could spend your whole life holding on Don't look back; just go Take a breath, move on Or you could spend your whole life holding on You could spend your whole life holding on Believe the tunnel can end Believe your body can mend Yeah, I know you can make it through 'Cause I believe in you So let's go put up a fight Let's go make everything all right Go on take a shot Go give it all you got Oh, yeah, I know it's not easy I know that it's hard No, it's not always pretty Get up and go Take a chance and be strong Or you could spend your whole life holding on Don't look back; just go Take a breath, move on Or you could spend your whole life holding on You could spend your whole life holding on Don't wanna wake up to the telephone ring Are you sitting down? I need to tell you something Enough is enough You can stop waiting to breathe And don't wait up for me Get up and go Take a chance and be strong Or you could spend your whole life holding on Don't look back; just go Take a breath, move on Or you could spend your whole life holding on Get up and go Take a chance and be strong Or you could spend your whole life holding on Don't look back; just go Take a breath, move on Or you could spend your whole life holding on You could spend your whole life holding on Don't spend your whole life holding on BLG #4 If You Could See Me Now Boys Like Girls Boys Like Girls (2006) The nights grow cold I'm growing older Everyday you're gone Is more lonesome than the last one I've spent all this time Without you in my life And you're still on my mind Nothing ever feels alright I'm tired of being alone Why dont you just come home Because I miss you so And I want you to know If you could see me now We could move on somehow If you could travel all the miles again If you could just see me now You wouldn't have a doubt We could just start this love all over And forget the things we know If you could see me now Somehow Everything I said Wasn't what I meant I hope you can forget And I can leave all my regrets Behind tonight And catch a flight to Boston And come start a new life And this time we can do it right I'm tired of being alone Why don't you just come home Because I miss you so And I want you to know If you could see me now We could move on somehow If you could travel all the miles again If you could just see me now You wouldn't have a doubt We could just start this love all over And forget the things we know If you could see me now Somehow If you could see me now We could move on somehow If you could travel all the miles If you could see me now We could move on somehow If you could travel all the miles again If you could just see me now You wouldn't have a doubt We could just start this love all over And forget the things we know If you could see me now We could move on somehow If you could travel all the miles again If you could see me now Somehow Secondhand Serenade #1 Your Call (new version) Secondhand Serenade A Twist In My Story (2008) Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry Call I'm desperate for your voice Listening to the song we used to sing In the car, do you remember Butterfly, Early Summer It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet Like when we would meet Cause I was born to tell you I love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh Cause every breath that you will take When you are sitting next to me Will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy? (What's your, what's your...) Cause I was born to tell you I love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home[X4] (I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have) Cause I was born to tell you I love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight Cause I was born to tell you I love you And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine Stay with me tonight (I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have) Secondhand Serenade #2 Why Secondhand Serenade A Twist In My Story (2008) The buttons on my phone are worn thin I don't think that I knew the chaos I was getting in. But I've broken all my promises to you I've broken all my promises to you. Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? A phrasing that's a single tear, Iis harder than I ever feared And you were left feeling so alone. Because these days aren't easy Like they have been once before These days aren't easy anymore. Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? To me, to me, to me... I should've known this wasn't real And fought it off and fought to feel What matters most? Everything That you feel while listening to every word that I sing. I promise you I will bring you home I will bring you home. Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this to me? Why do you do this so easily? You make it hard to smile because You make it hard to breathe Why do you do this to me? To me, to me, to me... Secondhand Serenade #3 Suppose Secondhand Serenade A Twist In My Story (2008) Suppose that I missed you, And suppose that I care, And suppose that I spent all my nights running scared, And suppose that I was never there. My eyes are screaming for the sight of you. And at night, I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through. And I can't hold on to you, So I guess I'll be lonely too. Suppose we were happy, Suppose it was true, And suppose there were cold nights but we somehow made it through And suppose that I'm nothing without you. My eyes are screaming for the sight of you. And tonight, I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through. And I can't hold on to you, So I guess I'll be lonely too. Slow way down This breakdown's eating me alive. And I'm tired, This fire's fighting to survive. Tell me a secret. (I want it) Tell me a story. (I need it) I'll listen attentively. I'll stay awake all night. All i need is a whisper. (So don't leave) There's nothing left in me. (Please help me) Not even my body, is strong enough to fight. (Let's make this right) Please help me make this right. Suppose that I was wrong, And suppose you were here, And suppose that I reached out and caught your tears, And suppose, this fight just disappeared. My eyes are screaming for the sight of you. And at night, I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through. And I can't hold on to you, So I guess I'll be lonely too. But I'd rather be here with you. Secondhand Serenade #4 Maybe Secondhand Serenade A Twist In My Story Didn't you wanna hear The sound of all the places we could go Do you fear The expressions on the faces we don't know It's a cold hard road when you wake up And I don't think that I Have the strength to let you go... Maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face It makes me wish that I was never brought into this place There goes my ring It might as well've been shattered And I'm here to sing About the things that mattered About the things that made us feel alive for oh so long About the things that kept you on my side when I was wrong... Maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face It makes me wish that I was never brought into this place And someday, I promise I'll be gone And someday, I might even sing this song To you, I might even sing this song, to you, to you, (To you) And I was crying alone tonight And I've been wasting all of my life just thinking of you So just come back we'll make it better So Just come back I'll make it better than it ever was [x2] Maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place Maybe it's just me, couldn't you believe That everything I said and did, wasn't just deceiving And the tear in your eye, and your calm hard face Makes me wish that I was never brought into this place Maybe it's just me (I want it all, don't leave right now) (I'll give you everything) Secondhand Serenade #5 Goodbye Secondhand Serenade A Twist In My Story (2008) It's a shame that it had to be this way It's not enough to say I'm sorry It's not enough to say I'm sorry Maybe I'm to blame Or maybe we're the same But either way I can't breathe Either way I can't breathe All I had to say is goodbye We're better off this way We're better off this way I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive Cause everything we've been through And everything about you Seemed to be a lie A guiltless twisted lie It made me learn to hate you Or hate myself for letting it pass by All I had to say is goodbye We're better off this way We're better off this way All I had to say is goodbye We're better off this way We're better off this way And every, everything isn't only What it seemed so hold these Words that you never told me It's time to say goodbye It's time to say goodbye It's time to say goodbye Goodbye Goodbye Take my hand away Spell it out Tell me I was wrong Tell me I was wrong Take my hand away Spell it out Tell me I was wrong Tell me I was wrong Take my hand away Spell it out Tell me I was wrong Tell me I was wrong c'est la vie. vivre avec. |&she laughed @ 12:59 AM♥
food for thought 135- it's over and done with yo. so, it's TGIF, really, I thank God it's friday. I love wheelock, I just realised. it's such a nice place to stone, the peace and quiet infuses the atmostphere and all your angst just dissipates. I tried lido too, 'cos the smell of fresh popcorn is my weakness, but it has a soothing effect too, sort of. still, thanks loulou, for introducing wheelock(: anyways, I don't know what happens in the aftermath of disasters, I mean, but you know, enough is really enough. I'm just gonna forget, I mean, some things can be taken as if they never happened. I am just going to forget that I ever went to that place. I mean, it's like if you tell yourself that long enough, you'd really believe it. seriously! I mean, if everyday, early in the morning, first thing you hear is that somebody comes and says to you, "you're stupid and good for nothing!", over time, you'd really buy that. hahahahhahaa, this is a hypothetical example. it's a thing about habits and influence, sort of. so like, in this case, habits, can make things go back to normal. and I think it's the coolness, the freshness, and the serenity at wheelock that makes reflection, stoning and angst-dissipating so comfortable there. I think there is this soothing effect about wheelock. really, you just sit there, and you feel calmer a whole lot. I think that's what us folks need sometimes, to clear up and regulate all that excess teenage angst, hormones and adrenaline. it's temporary, of course, but, it can be rather overwhelming. I, for one, felt better after the wheelock. you know, from today, I'm callin' it the wheelock effect. really, I don't like the hustle and bustle of other malls. wheelock is perfect. give me ion and wheelock, wheelock anytime. anyways, it's well, coming down a little, the angst I mean. less so now than before. humans are forgetful, that's one thing my dad told me when I told him about the entire episode from the top, and so he's like, there will be new fads and new issues, people won't remember. do you honestly think that people'd think about you for long when something new catches their eye? no! humans are forgetful, 善忘. anywho, anyhow, I was just like, orh, okay. but yeah, he's said that before about p6-s1 stuff and all, and it's just same human nature showing up after a while. I am quite alright now, thanks to jiao and lou who cushioned the blow and plugged the wound. by alright, I mean that, it is no longer simmering like it did. it is wearing, but I am still rather unconfident of my ability to keep my mouth sealed, or at least not say stupid things that I'd regret later, or things that may hurt people and all, so I'll still stay away for a while, let things cool and all. I mean, I'm getting over it already, and you know what? I'll survive, like countless previous episodes I will survive. I mean, if this were enough to kill me, I'd be made of marshmallows. 'course not right?! hahaha, tougher stuff, baby. takes a lot more to take me down and keep me down. try me. hey, the wheelock effect really works in taking your mind off stuff. OH, and so does a sizzling game of bridge! hehehe, it's true! ;D anyways, I'm too tired and sick to go back and fuss over the same issues, so I'm just gonna carry on with my life. please, I mean, everyone has lives to go back to. the truth of the reality doesn't change just because you keep harping on the point. I mean, I have so much other things to do than to sit and sob over pointless things I have no control over, nor can I change. soyeah, doesn't matter anymore, nothing much matters anymore, face it, I mean, it's just the way it's going to go down history. it's all predestination, God meant it to be like that for His purpose and plan. it appears negative, but God can make it for good. I mean, it's just an episode, everyone's lives are episodes put together, this is just one of millions of episodes and encounters in a lifetime. and it's really not that anyone's gonna remember it in 10 years, or 20 years. wanna bet? and the thing is, even if you do, the supposed developed maturity by then would just laugh it off as pure childishness. so why prolong your suffering for something you'd just look back and laugh over? it's not worth it. truly I say to you, the swollen, sore, painful and can-hardly-open eyes? totally unworth it. c'est la vie. vivre avec. |